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Monday: no rest for the wicked

today i was running on a whopping 3 hours of sleep. on my first day back to practice. PERFECT! literally perfect. 

practice went pretty smooth. i am not allowed to do anything quite at 100% yet and we’re working on preserving my body for our game this weekend. so i don’t do a lot of reps on less important drills. but we literally had 10 people at practice? so i couldn’t take that many reps off. 

i left early with some of my teammates to go volunteer with some second graders at a local elementary and we talked about accountability. they were the cutest babies in the world oh my goodness i literally love kids : ( most of them couldn’t even pronounce accountability but they did a great job breaking down and understanding the concept. i was very sad to see them go. and one of the girls in my group told me she loved my name and i almost melted. sadly they’re changing the schedule so i won’t be able to attend anymore but i was very grateful to spend this one morning with them. 

once we got back to campus i walked with one of the freshies to go home and i nearly walked her all the way back to her dorm because i was so invested in our conversation. but when i got home i had to lock in to classical mythology. and by lock in i mean i was in and out of sleep on the floor of my room. i decided to actually get ready after that class was over because i wanted to make it to the athletic support building but i fear i did not. i finished getting ready and then decided to figure out how to study for my accounting exam coming up (i feel like we just. had. one.). 

after listening in on my psych class i talked to my suitemate for a while while eating my first real meal of the day. i need better eating habits. because i am losing so much weight? and that’s like not good as an athlete. so this is a problem. that requires a solution. my suitemate decided she wanted to go to sleep and i wanted to sit in bed and finish my homework to give myself some comfort.

when i was about to start my laundry i got an invite to hangout with more members of the estranged friend group which i took up with a swiftness. we ended up all hanging out for a couple more hours than i originally planned for but i had a good time!

i headed home and got dinner with my suitemate before gossiping on her floor and then calling it a night. 

Tuesday: WHY I LOVE HOWARD

today the forecast was absolutely beautiful. it’s been disgusting and rainy for forever and the sunnnn was out ! this literally might be the first nice day in like a month. i didn’t have to bundle up for practice which still had like 8 attendees? everyone is sick and injured right now which is detrimental to our numbers. we finished up practice with a cute little lift which my roommate and i sped through. we headed to breakfast by myself and scarfed down my food while waiting for the freshies. 

i walked back home to see my roommate actually getting ready for her 9 am so i kinda followed suit? not really, just a cute ish interim outfit to wear until i can come home and shower. on the way to class our coach drove past my roommate and i, before spinning the block to pick me up and take me up the hill to class! live laugh love coachhh. i made it to accounting 30 min late… while we’re learning a new topic! as one does. but i caught on relatively quick. 

after accounting i had business problem solving and he let us out earlyyy. to be fair we were reviewing very simple problems for our upcoming midterm so it wasn’t really anything we hadn’t seen before. 

i got home, had a meeting, ate, and started getting ready for the day because i was definitely going to clock in some hours on the yard. i ended up making a pitstop to drop off some meds to my estranged friend of sorts and then headed to our athletic facility to meet my roommate. i had to give her a new shirt because it was really hot. to her. i guess? on my way there some random guy absolutely clocked my resting face because idk i just look like i hate the world when i walk around and i need to fix that. but he was like “what the f did i do to you??” and i just laughed it off because i really did not know what else to do in that situation. 

i waited for her to get changed and then we headed to the yard to secure a bench and Y’ALL. i’m about to go on a rant. this is probably my favorite part about this school. the yard was packed with people laying in the grass, playing music out loud, studying, talking, drawing, holding sales, etc with their friends. everyone looked so cute (obvi it was the first nice day in like years). sigh. it’s just so beautiful (corny but i’m right). i love symptoms of summer. 

we people watched for hours and while several of our friends and teammates came by to talk and hangout. eventually we got up to eat and i had a very balanced meal consisting of confetti cake, a brownie and fries. delicious! someone complimented my outfit but i like didn’t register what he said until he passed me so i had a kinda awkward response but i don’t think it’s anything to lose sleep over. 

we left the dining hall and walked back to the athletic facility where i took some BOMB flicks. i’ll insert because i feel like they deserve more air time then what i gave them. 

when we finally got home i finished my psychology assignment, cleaned my room and then washed my hair because my coach is twisting it! i was trying to go to sleep early so i didn’t really take time to do a hair mask but my hair seemed healthy and moisturized! i spent forever detangling because i reallyyyy massaged my scalp with my shampoo. but once i was finished i headed right to bed. 

Wednesday: not hot but not cold

today i spent an absurd amount of time at our athletic facility because i had practice and then immediately got my hair twisted in the coach’s office. the process takes around 2 ish hours but my coach was mad i forgot to bring a brush… again. whoops? one of the team captains grabbed us breakfast from sankofa which was delicious. i totally forgot about how much i love banana bread. 

once my coach finished twisting my hair i headed downstairs to do physical therapy for 20 minutes which allowed me to finish everything but pt feels so pointless sometimes? like it helps and i know it helps but stepping up on a little stool 30 times just feels so dumb. AGAIN it does help and i can feel the results but the exercises are so silly. i finished and ran into the school nutritionist? and then was exploited for views (my coach’s filmed me trying this recovery drink and posted it on instagram). 

i had to dip after literally 6 hours spent in this building. like i arrived at 6 and left at noon? insane. 

i went to class and paid a decent amount of attention but then he shared that there was crucial information being discussed during friday’s class and OFC our team is traveling on friday. so! yeah! perfect! 

once i trotted home i showered and got ready for the day. i was going to wear this cute black top and jeans but my roommate insisted it was hot and she was sweating so i changed into shorts (small mistake). when i finally walked up to the flagpole where my teammates were sitting i thought you know it’s warm enough for shorts but i would’ve been fine in jeans. the longer i sat there the more i thought i should’ve worn the jeans. but whatever. 

we people watched, got free cupcakes, ate sushi, and talked with friends for a good hour and a half before i decided i was cold and wanted to go home instead of study. 

i got home and talked with my suitemate while working on some assignments until my roommate got home from class and we all talked and giggled. our teammate came over for dinner and we decided to take turns telling team stories on the floor of my suitemate’s room. we were giggling, eating, and being girls. i left to start picking up my side of the room and they started talking about how much i yap in the morning… i don’t really sleep for a long time and when i wake up i could literally be ready for a full blown psychoanalysis within 15 minutes. idk. but i do yap a lot on the way to practice. 

after we finished talking with our teammate me and my suitemate headed to our student center to see some kinda friends, and i was walked back to my dorm for bed time! however once i got in i realized that i was really hungry and had him pick me up dinner before i chatted to my roommate and fell asleep. 

Thursday: SIGH

we made it to darty day. but first practice and lift. we got a new goalie! yay! we ran clear patterns with her for a while at practice and then changed for lift which ended up just being stretching. we listened to bryson tiller the entire time and i love hearing the entire team sing their hearts out because very few of us can actually sing. 

i got to the dining hall and ordered an omelette, which i only managed to consume half of before leaving to get ready. i really threw on whatever because this was my class outfit and i get done with class at noon. i mean i don’t have time to shower before changing so i just wear something i don’t care about or something lightly worn. 

accounting was just an exam review because our test is coming up on tuesday, but we’ve already gone over the problems he was reviewing so i focused on getting my other work done in class. i did the same thing in business problem solving because literally it’s the exact same situation: exam on tuesday, reviewing old content. 

once i finished at school of business, i headed over to the athletic support building and grinded for way longer than anticipated? but i was really focused and productive so why not. 

on my walk home i noticed the darty was not up and bumping so i figured i had a decent amount of time to get ready. we ended up having a group of 7 that seemed to keep growing as time went on. we took a lot of cute digital shots of everyone which was so adorable, i love my camera something fierce. we made it out of our dorm a little later than expected but at least we made it out of the building. the park was packed and it felt like i kept running into every single person i had ever met but that’s okay because i like talking and saying hi to everyone. eventually i wanted to go home to pee but i ended up not feeling well and staying back with my two fav comfort people. who made me feel much better. shoutout. huge shoutout. 

i laid in the bed for a while and my suitemate helped me do laundry and pack my bag for our new york trip. another big ole shoutout. i finally showered and hung out with the estranged until it was time to sleep.

Friday: concrete jungle where dreams are made of

new york day! i woke up and headed to burr for a shoot around. obviously i don’t shoot… maybe not obviously? idk if i’ve clarified that i play defense but i got treatment and then practiced some long passes with my teammates before heading inside and waiting for the bus. 

i really enjoy long bus rides because the motion lulls me to sleep and i love looking out the window if the scenery is pretty. i love skylines so this was a great bus ride for me. 

we got to the hotel and blocked the street for a little bit before we dropped all of our luggage off and went out to eat. i chose to go to canes because i love canes so much and there is only ONE raisin canes in dc but this one was very chaotic. plus they were definitely pressed because there was a good 13 of us ordering on one card. 

one the way back from canes i received the most earth shattering news ever! there is a really funny picture from right after i found out and i fear it put me in quite the mood for the rest of the day. 

essentially… the person who was just recently reintroduced into my life… that was previously estranged and hated… is now being ripped out of my life again… for technically a good reason… but for 6 months… in 2 days. 

how do i cope with that? i don’t actually know because i just cried a decent amount. i literally lost my appetite and tried to distract myself with school work until dinner. 

we had pasta that actually made my stomach hurt a lot so i missed a majority of our team meeting. but after our team meeting our coach let us explore the city a little bit and go to target where i dropped a casual 60 dollar bag on makeup. i lowkey hate myself for that but i was also kinda excited? 

when we got back to the hotel i dropped one of my brand new lip oils down the elevator shaft! but the bad events of the day were starting to pile up at this point so i just shrugged it off to avoid a full on mental breakdown in the hotel. 

when i got back to my room i showered, called my friends, and finished a psychology assignment. 

Saturday (and pieces of Sunday): the longest day ever

happy game day girls! i woke up bright and early and headed down to the lobby with all my bags to eat a lovely bacon egg and cheese sandwich before hopping on the bus. we had an hour ride to the field which i spent listening to music. we all got ready in the locker room to my suitemate’s playlist and headed out for warm ups. 

the opposing team’s warm up playlist was trash but that’s besides the point, let’s cover the game: defense played amazing. our zone set was super super pretty and efficient. communication was phenomenal. loved to see it. attack was trying to fight a really aggressive high pressure defense and started to shine towards end. 

my roommate and i were the first to shower but somehow almost last to leave the building? i don’t even understand us sometimes… idk why we signed up to carry a 60 pound wagon down a set of stairs. but we did. 

the bus ride home was very stressful because i was planning out how to deal with my whole earth shattering news situation. so i sprinted off the bus, fast walked home and showered so that i could figure this whole thing out. 

a group of us helped him pack all of his belongings in different suitcases. i had a great time rolling and folding clothes honestly. we also took several breaks comprised of everyone talking about their feelings and what the future looked like in several different aspects. we ended up taking the conversation to our friend’s apartment and we chatted over popeyes. everyone kept taking their turn as group therapist which was honestly kinda helpful and helped me hold back my tears. 

we eventually left to clean up the rest of his room and organize suitcases, bins, trash bags, and duffles. we had a conversation concerning what we were going to do about our very complicated dynamic and landed at the grand answer of: i don’t know ! so… literally what is real you guys? i don’t know. 

i slept for about an hour before he called an uber to the airport. our mutual friend met us outside at 5 am ish and him and i decided to just go to the airport too. we helped (i did not do much) him tag bags and make sure everything was underweight before saying our very long sad goodbyes. i managed to not cry for my long farewell hug but my heart was very heavy. 

my friend and i got dunkin and had a full on life debrief for 2 whole hours over breakfast sandwiches and tea. when it was time for him to take off we watched his flight leave before i inevitably burst into tears ❤

we then called a ride home and chatted about him until we arrived on campus and finally at 7:30 am i made it up to my room and collapsed on my suitemate’s floor to finally get some well deserved rest.

BANGERS OF THE WEEK:

EVERYWHERE I GO BY TAY K

SHIBUYA BY SKI MASK THE SLUMP GOD

LOVE BY KEYSHIA COLE

CANCUN BY PLAYBOI CARTI

DOWN IN ATLANTA BY PHARRELL WILLIAMS

STILL YOUR BEST BY GIVEON 

BEST TIME BY BRENT FAIYAZ

A-TEAM BY TRAVIS SCOTT

GO AWAY!! BY LUCKI

SEXY VILLIAN BY REMI WOLF