Monday: i hate mondays. and not in the like millennial script coffee mug kinda way.
practice was hell on earth, we ran so much and i was very much out of breath. it was as if i had never conditioned before a day in my life i swear to you not. coaches said the team did well, i felt like i was on the verge of death. but no biggie cause we had lift right afterwards! i lifted really light because it’s important to advocate for your recovery process. my body was already achey, and i can’t preform well if i feel like a rickety cabinet! after lift i ran to breakfast and the coffee machine thingy broke right after i got my two shots of espresso. so i just had two shots and hazelnut creamer because they were also out of french vanilla creamer. i literally had peaches and potatoes before i had to leave to go to my planetary science class (online). i had a presentation on solar flares. then i spent the rest of class trying to pick out an
outfit. it took so long i showed up to my 11:10 class at 11:50…whoops! i still got my points though, y’all stay safe! ❤ once i finished class i went to study hall : ) study hall can be real cute and this time it was. i went for an hour and 10 minutes and really focused on my blog since my homework isn’t due until thursday. i’m super excited for the holiday season and winter like eek. it makes me miss home a lot because i feel like dc doesn’t really get snow and ohio does. but then one of my kids showed up and i forced her to accompany me to the dining hall because i absolutely refuse to eat alone in there when it’s busy. that’s just a me thing, i get so anxious about my every movement it’s just annoying tbh. so anyways it was actually like packed packed and we didn’t have anywhere to sit! yay! i ended up just crashing one of our other teammates tables, oops. but i hate when it’s like so busy there is nowhere to sit cause, you’re telling me… everyone is here… at the same time… just by chance… please. anyways i had quesadillas which definitely tore my stomach up: ) there’s no doubt about that! i went back to the locker room and changed for career counseling which is technically a 3 semester course… kind of… but this is my last semester. a bunch of corporations send representatives to present different lessons on business professionalism. i really enjoy when the presentations are interactive which this one was. thank you deloitte! they had a little case interview question at the end that we got to solve with our teams. after career counseling i headed back over to the locker room and changed out of my business professional attire and back into my calm luh fit. and i picked up my tickets for the season opener that night! purr we love basketball! i went home FINALLY i swear to the heavens y’all i love and hate being away from my dorm all day. but anyways i made it back and showered and then got ready for my school of business team meeting.
we have a case study assignment to do and we’re lowkey kinda behind but i read over the case study in career counseling and it’s cool! there’s a lot of room for creative recommendations and marketing plans so i like it. i was late cause i went to the wrong building first… i don’t even know i just blanked. then i pulled up, suggested my suggestions, picked out a cute slide theme, and dipped. the basketball game was so funsies until i got overwhelmed. but i sat with my teammates and i just really enjoy hbcu culture. we played hampton, so obviously there was a lot of good energy. i left kinda early and then thought i lost my wallet and doubled back to the building i had my team meeting in and still couldn’t find it! woohoo! no no cause that’s fine! it’s fine! everything is so fine! hahaha! so i almost cried and i was on the phone with my dad and we was being calm about it so thanks dad! i made it all the way back to my dorm and guess what! my wallet was on my bed. LOL ahahaha. yeah i almost lost it. anyways i was just really stressed and upset. and my dad was trying to make me feel
better by telling me he bent his laptop screen. and was that helpful at all? no. but he was trying to distract me which is just so sweet. and so i started bawling cause like he didn’t have to do that and i appreciate him and miss him very much. then my mama called me so i picked up and started rantingggg which helped a ton. and then he texted me back. and suddenly everything settled. everything was fine. i’m not even going to try to defend myself. at the end of the day… I AM SIMPLY A TEENAGE GIRL. like sorry my bad.
Tuesday: the boy is better than me at anagrams… and all of you must suffer because of this.
we didn’t have practice today! woo! y’all it’s the little things i swear. i tried to sleep in but i simply hate sleeping in. like if i’m awake and not tired, i must get out of bed and do something. so i got up and showered around 7 and got ready for breaky. it was almost post apocalyptic cause normally i have breakfast with my team and it’s just swim, soccer, some football players, rotc, and a sprinkle of other students but this time i was all dressed and ready for the day. i ate by myself, i had ham, french toast, coffee (THEY HAD FRENCH VANILLA CREAMER), and pineapple. i talked to a lot of my home
friends today it was so adorable. i got in an hour of study hall and went homesies. i had african studies, business statistics today and lab. tuesdays are kinda chill though honestly. i made a bracelet during my planetary science class and practiced anagrams because because because because because. i literally REFUSE to lose like… that is just embarrassing. Kendall Barker does not lose word games on game pigeon so make fun of me if you want but i need to stack my cookies up cause they are crumbling.
i need to get back on my new york times grind stat. i accidentally napped for like an hour while watching sims vids. no judgement please and thank you. i just miss that game everyday. she understood me like no one else could. coping with her absence has been rough. but healing looks different for everyone. i woke up and went to the dining hall with 3 of my teammates and then went home and talked to my mom while they went to bible study. recently i haven’t been feeling like myself and i am mildly concerned. i have no clue what is wrong. it started with me being moody and irritable, now i’m like very sensitive to everyone’s little comments. i feel like a puppet in a way. i’ve been sharing more which yes, i understand when you share, people give you unwanted advice and they want to put
in their two cents. i typically let people’s words kind of roll off my back. but recently the influx of condemnatory opinions about my life and my decisions has been so overwhelming. and i want to do what i want to do, i enjoy being true to myself but i hate hearing the side comments.to be clear: i am still going to do what i want to do but it’s just very annoying now. and i’m not about to start my period. maybe i just need to go home and shut up : ( anyways on a more handsome note: corbin bleu. i saw this edit of him. reposted it, duh. literally he was SO fine. i- i watched that tik tok so many times.
Wednesday: the day i refused to shut up
i am not going to hold y’all… i have a very limited memory of this day. my fault. i woke up and did not have practice, bless up! as per usual it took me forever to find something to wear but it’s okay because at least i am dressing like myself again. i presented 3 times in planetary science, lets go! and i was only 20 minutes late to business communications, a win is a win i don’t wanna hear it. except we took a big loss today, i got a 75% on my paper : ( so i will be taking myself to office hours. expeditiously. and begging on my hands and knees for another chance. from business communications i facetimed my mom to bother her at work ! and i walked to the dining hall to meet the freshies for lunch. i got a fye stir fry with udon noodles,
broccoli, zucchini, jackfruit, and miso broth. TWAS BOMB like so freaking good. then i smuggled my food out of the dining hall because they are so stingy. like how are you gonna tell me i can’t take the food i paid for… out of the dining hall… it’s lowkey disrespectful. once i got to study hall i started doing hw and shopping for a juicy suit. why are they over 200 dollars now??? in this economy? who can afford that? in case i have any rich secret admirers i wear a size xs and i want the navy blue set. but i was genuinely flabbergasted. i also tried playing some of my kids in anagrams and i kept losing. at this point i have accepted the fact that i might just be a loser : ( then one of our teammates had a full on crying fit mental breakdown over her hair. like randomly in the middle of study hall. i went to follow her to the locker room… and i was just trying to tell her that it is so very normal for black women to get so upset at their hair not doing what it is supposed to do. i have canceled plans, missed school, cried, EVERYTHING because i didn’t like my hair. so she is valid. but she is also about to start her period soon. so… you know… it is what it is. my other teammate joined me and we were consoling her and we kinda calmed her down from wanting to cut it all off. and lemme tell yall her hair is beautiful. like i love her hair. so i really didn’t want her to cut it off. even our learning specialist called in and validated her feelings and told her not to cut it off. i switched the conversation to a nice ice breaker: f marry kill… you know… real therapeutic. anyways after consoling her i went back to my home and took a little nap and i had a little girly debrief aka i laid on my suitemate’s floor and talked about myself for 30 minutes. i started getting ready for dinner and i was in a GOOD mood. so i took it upon myself to BEAT my face.
like i was going to look good that night no matter what. i might not even have needed to go anywhere but it’s the practice that keeps me going. it’s fun to look good for no reason. i headed to dinner with my godmother and her daughter because they are touring universities right now and im so glad they came to see me ! and howard too ig. we got dinner at Mi Vida and i just chit chatted to my heart’s content. like omg. i talk SO much. and it’s been on my report card since kindergarten but like i might need to start my meds again cause this was simply ridiculous. and i knew i was talking a lot too, but if you thought that was going to stop me you are surely mistaken. and when i make myself laugh i literally cry. like i have hyperactive tear ducts or sum. and i think i am the funniest person ever so i was just crying off my full face beat… they gave me their leftovers to take home! broke college student win. and i went home, sent this boy my cutie pie pictures and fell asleep.
Thursday: that girl cut all her hair off
all of that consoling went to the rubbish bin. cause WHYYY did i show up to practice today and that girl had no hair. she cut off all her bayangs. please send your prayers and affirmations her way. practice was really productive despite having no coaches and we all had really good energy. i was in a stellar
mood except why does my face look so swollen every time i wake up. riddle me that. like oh my wow. my hammy has been really tight the past couple of days. so i went to PT and they said it was crunchy…. yuhhh! i rolled out my hamstring, got stim and ultrasound, scraped, and rolled out again : ) i felt much better! i went to breakfast, got coffee duh- but they were out of french vanilla creamer lol. i’m sick. anyways hazelnut had to do. i was lowkey late to meeting my godmother and her daughter for class. so i switched shorts from practice, packed my school bag, finished my coffee, and headed out of my dorm to meet them. i took my god sister to my african studies class. lecture was actually really good: we talked about why the media chooses to cover certain conflicts over others, african current news specifically is rarely covered. v interesting points were brought up. after class i walked her over to the yard and just sat on one of the benches to burn time until her meeting. i was just talking about campus life and giving little golden nuggets about college life. i love being a mentor figure for young girls, it honestly helps me reconnect to my reasons for pursuing a degree, attending howard, playing collegiate lacrosse, etc. i walked her over to her meeting, met back up with her mom and walked home. i have been meaning to do my laundry for the past 2 weeks and still have not completed it, i literally had a break in my day to and STILL could not find the motivation to. i showered and took a little nap with my new fan that they bought me! i am so grateful. after my nap i realized
that i had a package to pick up from my lacrosse mom at home. she sends me and my other best friend, who goes to school in florida, packages every semester and it truly is so thoughtful and generous. it was a whole spooky basket full of candy and socks. i love her so much. i called her to thank her and check in on her family. i am so excited to go home and see my people y’all have no idea. after unboxing my package i went to meet my roommate at the dining hall. i accidentally dressed up. i know that sounds silly but i do it quite frequently. i plan to wear a bum lil fit and somehow it turns into jeans and a long sleeve crop top. and like for one meal at the cafe. i need to get it together but also i feel like it’s kinda fun sometimes. anyways i sent an apology text to my roommate and headed over. i ate fried shrimp, beans, and rice…. yeah it was what it was. i went to go visit the esports lab before i went home and i took my roommate with me cause she had never been down there. her reactions make me GIGGLE like she’s so funny. then had another girl debrief with my suitemate at home because… why not.
Friday: i can’t stand the rain on my window
no school but we had lift and practice today ! lift first though and i actually prefer that order so i was a pretty happy camper. i think i got weaker in the arms. i cannot bench to save my life. like i can’t even tell y’all the number because. it’s so. yeah nvm. anyways it was pretty much freezing rain outside. like 50 degrees and there was a consistent cold drizzle. it was definitely giving pneumonia breeding ground type weather. we ran a lot though to keep warm. or something. the running wasn’t that bad but i was wearing a crewneck and
shorts. so eh not my best decision. once practice was over i went and spent money i DO NOT HAVE on tropical smoothie with some of my teammates. i got the peanut butter banana and granola flatbread with the mango magic smoothie. it’s my fav combo. we used to get tropical smoothie for breakfast when we traveled during season but i don’t think coaches are ordering tropical smoothie anymore : ( rippppp but it still reminds me of long bus drives early in the morning. when we got back from tropical smoothie it was time to deep clean the suite. she was truly looking rough. like gross. but she’s in tip top shape now. i took a shower and then got in the bed. the boy came to visit and for a couple minutes. my suitemate had some words to exchange with him, which was very entertaining for me. i spent the rest of the day in bed. i ATTEMPTED to do laundry y’all i pinky promise but there were no washers open. both of the washers on my floor don’t work and nothing was open on the other floors. so yeah i just gave up and got in the bed. i got a text from one of my friends from home i haven’t talked to in a while so i facetimed him. he is so incredibly toxic… like oh my wow. he takes what future and brent say as bible istg. so like it’s mildly concerning but also it makes our phone calls very interesting. after our catch up my teammate who isn’t playing this semester came down to visit and we just chatted for like an hour about how season is going what we’re excited for next semester. then we all decided to head over to whole foods 30 min before it closed. i always feel badly doing that, but i have a gift card and i needed to buy ice cream. okay needed is a stretch but i wanted to make someone feel better… anyways then i got ready to see that someone. walked all the way over there at 11 pm by myself (in retrospect not that smart of a decision but i didn’t have that epiphany until like 5 minutes into my walk when my aunt said something). i was just chatting away on the phone with my aunt. anyways when i arrived i finished that entire pint of ice cream with him. it was the chocolate fudge brownie flavor by ben and jerry’s but i accidentally bought the dairy free version without knowing, which is great for me actually. figured out i had walked all the way over there with my fly down. and you know what that should be embarrassing and it was but alsooooo things are only embarrassing when you truly think it’s embarrassing. if you act like it’s not that embarrassing, then it’s not. right? idk that’s the way i coped.
Saturday: baby it’s cold outside
the suite started off in a cute little lazy mood. we all went to breakfast together around 10:30. my roommate and i are really into making up random little games and playing them at the table. so today we played a word association game… kinda it was like word association meets heads up. we ate breakfast, played our game, and people watched. on the walk back we came up with ANOTHER game to pass the time. it started off as the green glass door riddle but them we just kept rotating and making new rules for the door. when we got back my suitemate and i got in the bed and watched the lego movie while my roommate watched wolf on wall street. similar genres yk. anyways i love virtruvius. and my suitemate thinks i am very similar to unikitty. idk how to feel about that. but then i
thought about this blog. and the style… and maybe. she might’ve been right. y’all can decide. my suitemate went to cvs to get snacks while i fell asleep in her bed ❤ when she got back we were brainstorming other movies to watch for the day but then my roommate wanted to go to the football game. i reluctantly agreed but recently i’e been having going out fomo so i was really excited to get ready for something. i also helped my roommate’s sister edit her common app essay. which ended up taking 30 minutes longer than we intended so i rushed through my get ready sesh. idk why i thought it was going to be warm when the sun literally sets at 5 pm. so i wore a bodysuit, low wasted cargos and a jean jacket. safe to say i was a little ice cube during that game. but the makeup was eating and so did the pictures. my roommate and i are the biggest fans of the band. so we were very excited to have made it in time to see them preform. honestly we thought we were going to lose but howard’s football team must’ve had the warmup and locker room talk of a
lifetime because they were doing soooo well. we all really enjoy watching sports so we were all really into the game. roster pulled up, watching the replays and everythingggg. anyways it was very clear that we were on our way to a lil blowout and we all were freezing so we decided to go eat. after eating we went to the student center to watch my roommate play fortnite. i was genuinely so excited to see this girl play with a controller instead of on her ipad. she actually did such a good job i’m so happy for her. she had been watching fortnite vids all day. after that we ran home to the suite because it had gotten even colder. i was so stuffed from our food i had to unfasten my belt. we looked a hot mess. i hope no one saw us.
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